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([personal profile] mamculuna Apr. 9th, 2009 05:26 pm)
I've tried to say something like this to some friends, but Thich Nhat Hanh says it so much better:

The day my mother died, I wrote in my journal, "A serious misfortune of my life has arrived." I suffered for more than one year after the passing away of my mother. But one night, in the highlands of Vietnam, I was sleeping in the hut of my hermitage. I dreamed of my mother. I saw myself sitting with her, and we were having a wonderful talk. She looked young and beautiful, her hair flowing down. It was so pleasant to sit there and talk with as if she had never died. When I woke up it was about two in the morning, and I felt very strongly that I had never lost my mother. The impression that my mother was still with me was very clear. I understood then that the idea of having lost my mother was just an idea. It was obvious in that moment that my mother is always alive in me.

I opened the door and went outside. The entire hillside was bathed in moonlight. It was a hill covered with tea plants, and my hut was set behind the temple halfway up. Walking slowly in the moonlight through the rows of tea plants, I noticed my mother was still with me. She was the moonlight caressing me as she had done so often, very tender, very sweet… wonderful! Each time my feet touched the earth I knew my mother was there with me. I knew this body was was not mine alone but a living continuation of my mother and my father and my grandparents and great-grandparents. Of all my ancestors. These feet that I saw as "my" feet were actually "our" feet. Together my mother and I were leaving footprints in the damp soil.

From that monet on, the idea that I had lost my mother no longer existed. All I had to do was look at the palm of my hand, feel the breeze on my face or the earth under my feet to remember that my mother is always with me, available at any time.


- Thich Nhat Hanh, "No Death, No Fear"

Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] rblake77 in [livejournal.com profile] buddhists

From: [identity profile] missprune.livejournal.com


That is really beautiful. The only way I'd change it would be to say mother is alive beside me - rather than in me. But that's just my personal take based on a couple of experiences long ago! Thank you for posting such a lovely passage.

From: [identity profile] mamculuna.livejournal.com


I'm so glad you liked it. I did, too--and yes, I also have that "beside me" experience with both my parents, and others I've lost, but other times I think they're part of me.

Next week I'll be going to a memorial for a dear friend who was a great (really, she was famous) gardener, and now every flower I see shows me her face.

From: [identity profile] midnightsjane.livejournal.com


Oh, that is so beautiful. Thank you for posting this. It really helped get me out of my gloomy gus mood.
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That is beautiful. I feel that way about my son. He is with me always. Luckily, I only had to wait a few days for my dream about him. Thank you for posting this.

From: [identity profile] mamculuna.livejournal.com


I'm really glad it feels like that for you, too. Yours was such a hard loss.
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