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[mamculuna]

It's 11:30 here and my son's plane doesn't come in for another two hours, and then he has to take a cab from the airport, so I have a lot of evening to kill. I've totally cleaned this place--not easy for a ground floor apartment in the middle of the city, where the dust comes in around the window frames and piles up in evil black dunes on every piece of furniture and floor. And after this weekend I'll be headed back south to the house I completely cleaned before I left, but which the house sitter will not have touched while I was up here. I seem mostly to clean and leave.


As often happens, yoga the other day opened a door into other parts of my life. I fell--not far, just sort of sat down. Npt painful, not even jarring--and I was glad it happened. The reason I lost my balance in side angle (a pose that seems easy but is really very hard, for me at least) was that I was for once trying so hard to twist, backbend, and get my pelvis aligned that I forgot that I had my hand on my leg rather than on the floor. And what that helped me see was that I usually don't try as hard as I can in most poses. It's not that I'm afraid of something bad happening like falling but that I'm afraid I can't do it. And that's a pattern in so many other parts of my life. And after thinking through that, I had some very nice writing time. Hmmm, hmm. Thanks, yoga, as always.

Comments

[wisewoman.livejournal.com]

That is a revelation.

I don't do yoga, but I suspect I'm afraid of falling. I don't know if I'll be able to do it unless I try, but I'd rather avoid the pain of falling, if at all possible.

:o)

[mamculuna.livejournal.com]

I understand that! And I always thought that was the fear that bothered me too, but seeing it this other way was very interesting. What I do like about yoga is that seeing very simple things about my body sometimes shows me more complex things about other parts of my life.

[usedtobeljs]

I am v. much...cognizant of how much I let fear affect me, and your story of your epiphany is particularly important to remind me I shouldn't. Thank you.
(And happy weekend!)

[mamculuna.livejournal.com]

Thanks. Hope yours is good too.