- Watching the sunrise while waiting to start morning meditation
- 36 hours of silence, except the teachings
- Great feeling of peace from absence of all news
- And the Welcome Center for Space People in the tiny, backwoods town of Bowman, SC (picture on LJ--still can't manage to get one here)
And I'm going on a retreat today through Sunday, so there will hopefully be joys, but no posts. Joy to all of you, every day!
Joy of Saturday; The march! Such incredible energy! Such a good feeling among the marchers. No matter how crowded it was, how impossible even to move, nobody was cross or snippy. Just a spirit of love all over the whole event. I think it revived us all and sent us home ready to make some changes, doing the hard work of every day. I'll post pics on LJ and try to link here later.
The current meme--I got it from maju
1. What was the last thing you put in your mouth? Part of a whole-wheat pita.
2. Where was your profile picture taken? Some beach, somewhere!
3. Do you play Pokemon Go? No
4. Name someone who made you laugh today? My husband, as usual.
5. How late did you stay up last night? 11:15 pm.
6. If you could move somewhere else, where would it be? Berkeley, to live near my son and granddaughter. But if it were just to be in the place I like best, it would be the beach.
7. Ever been kissed under fireworks? No, but I did sit down in a chair and had the seat fall out!
8. Who is your most observant friend? Religiously observant? I guess my teacher.
9. Do you believe ex's can be friends? My ex and I are very good friends. Just takes good will and time, I think.
10. How do you feel about Dr. Pepper? Love the taste, but can’t handle the caffeine.
11. Who took your profile picture? I think I found it online.
12. Who was the last thing you took a picture of? The little dusting of snow in my backyard.
13. Was yesterday better than today? No, they were about the same.
14. Can you live a day without TV? Yes. I frequently do. Right now, I’m knitting, and like to watch while I’m doing that, but listening to music also works.
15. If you could have any career/job what would it be? I very much like retirement. This is what I was born to do...
16. Are you a bad influence? Not in any definition of bad that I accept.
I'm beginning (in my mid-70's) to recognize that I do have to admit and deal with the aging process. Can't come up with the Jeopardy answers as quickly as I used to, don't heal as fast from small injuries, don't sleep quite as much at night, weight comes off more slowly (and we're not talking about what I see in the mirror!) Those are all so tiny, gradual, and unimportant (at least on the small level where I experience them) that I don't think about them much.
But the place where I do face the fact is in yoga. At one point I thought that I could always at least get back to the point where I'd once been, even if it took a lot of work--and for a long time I could. And maybe if I made yoga my whole life, I could get back to my best days of ten years ago. But why? It's more interesting, really, to learn about myself as I am, because sooner or later no matter how hard I work, I won't get back to that place. So one option is to mourn what I've lost, but another is to explore this new country as it keeps changing, and even try to develop some gratitude for something new to learn about.
And for sure, it's very much about learning! ( stuff about my body, if you're interested )
And that has led to a lot more mindfulness in yoga, trying to be aware of exactly which positions and movements cause compression in my neck, which strengthen it, and what helps and hurts my shoulders. It's as though I'm looking at my body, especially in yoga, from a totally different perspective, no longer trying to reach some outcome, but noticing what the process is like, and learning what my body really is.
I'm also very grateful that I get to learn with a very good teacher who has actually worked up whole classes partly inspired by my needs (but then, most of my class is over 50, so maybe we all need it), and even more grateful that I'm learning in a gentle way. This would be so much less interesting if serious pain and disability were involved. Maybe it will help me if I ever have to face that, though.
I have started getting Russian spam on my own LJ posts. I can probably change the security to prevent that, but still. just not a good sign.
So my New Year's Eve was a quiet one at home with B and Mop, and this morning we had meditation, followed by chai and cookies--good to start the year with old friends who are a true community. And later I'll go to write with my writing partner, after not getting much done in the last few weeks on my own.
I hope everyone has a wonderful New Year!
In Memoriam, [Ring out, wild bells]
Ring out, wild bells, to the wild sky, The flying cloud, the frosty light: The year is dying in the night; Ring out, wild bells, and let him die. Ring out the old, ring in the new, Ring, happy bells, across the snow: The year is going, let him go; Ring out the false, ring in the true. Ring out the grief that saps the mind For those that here we see no more; Ring out the feud of rich and poor, Ring in redress to all mankind. Ring out a slowly dying cause, And ancient forms of party strife; Ring in the nobler modes of life, With sweeter manners, purer laws. Ring out the want, the care, the sin, The faithless coldness of the times; Ring out, ring out my mournful rhymes But ring the fuller minstrel in. Ring out false pride in place and blood, The civic slander and the spite; Ring in the love of truth and right, Ring in the common love of good. Ring out old shapes of foul disease; Ring out the narrowing lust of gold; Ring out the thousand wars of old, Ring in the thousand years of peace.